Some sad thoughts at first so if you do not like or you are not interested, skip to the second "
" I really wouldn't mind
I am very sorry for not leaving any message after I've came back from Szczecin. I can tell it was a great trip, I could rest a little from my home, from computer, my small cave. It took more than two weeks, so when I got home I was really physically tired. Many messages from around internet welcomed me and I felt overwhelmed by this. I wanted to share some photos and stories but I simply failed.
I was unable to fulfill the following promises (this one above and so many others) there are still a lot of things behind my heart, a lot of people, many issues. The worst is when I am failling to people I love. Today I feel like I am falling lower and lower, loosing all control over my life and myself. When I am thinking that it is so close to the end of vacation I feel even worse. I do not even want to count how many plans I didn't complete.
Some fake smiles, some sparks of happiness and I am close to the bottom again. I start to behave strangely, and hollow, so my family starts to be even more aggressive towards me. I've heard I am insincere egoist having my mouth shouted and hiding. But I just simply cannot explain all the reasons of me feeling like shit. I need calmness in my soul. The reasons I've shared are not the only ones, but I do not want to be too dramatic and emotion-spammer, idk .
So, I am leaving to Górki Wielkie. I will be there for 9 days, wish me luck I am worried about this trip too. YHHH I am almost ready but it was so hard to mobilize =-= We will make animation during this time, but I do not know the details.
Another new (this one is good ) , I will get my very own laptop
, I collected the money for it from a long time. I spend all my savings and now I earn to go to Austria during next holidays.
My OC-Blog is ready but I will share link after I will came back. I think it looks very nice (I've found such a good Tumblr skin! I am so happy that the creator shared something so good for free :' ) )
At my main blog at Tumblr ( kirinoru.tumblr.com/
) I have 199 followers and I feel happy about it too. I will think about celebration artwork during my absence. ^ ^
And that is all for now, I think. Sorry no PL, my friends
Take care of yourself, pray for me and wish me the best , I will be so grateful
Thank you for the support and every good touch you are leaving in my life.
Gifts - Kyou, Akita
The newest fanarts with my OC's ~! : DD